The only way

Even though my hatha yoga class went well, it doesn’t take away my anxiety. My heart is still racing when al kinds of negative thoughts are entering my mind. It feels disappointing, but I am a beginner. I always want too much too soon. I want to be like the advanced Yogi’s, but I am not there. It makes me sad. Thinking that I can’t. But I won’t give up. That’s not me. It will be a long road. With ups and downs, pausing moments. Someday I will get there, it’s the only way. With yoga on my mind ~ 🧘‍♀️ 💔~ #yoga #yogalifestyle #yogaposes #yogalife #yogapractice #yogainspiration #yogagirl #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #healing

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Rest in the sun

Rest is needed. Three hours of yin yoga was too much to bare. So I need to take it slow the rest of the week. No yin, but hatha next Saturday. Working on my breathing exercises again. The rest of the week it’s walking. Enjoying the sun on my skin. Breathing the fresh air of spring. It doesn’t give me the joy of yoga. Hopefully yoga helps me to enjoy these moments better. ~ ☀️ ~ #yoga #yogagirl #yogainspiration #yogalife #yogalifestyle #yogapractice #yogajourney #yogalove #yogalover

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Doubt and surrender

At this moment I wonder if I will ever be able to surrender to yoga. Surrender in a way I can trust the process. Like doing a pose. Not for performing the pose, but to experience the pose. So I need to experience yoga rather than doing yoga. Experiencing yoga is more difficult. You need to surrender and I don’t know how. So that is where I am at this moment. Surrender, experiencing my doubts and practice yoga again. So someday I will experience the complete surrender to yoga and hopefully find my inner peace. It’s a long way… ~ 🧘‍♀️ ☁️~ #yoga #yogagirl #yogainspiration #yogalifestyle #yogalife #yogapractice #yogahealing #healing #healingjourney

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The other beauty

Today I joined a 3 hour yin yoga masterclass. A wonderful experience but also very confronting. It brought me back to the sadness and pain I try to hide everyday. I think it’s part of the healing process. I also noticed some beautiful moments, when I succeeded in relaxing after performing the pose. Other poses however confronted me with all the pain I was hiding. Now I am satisfied in joining this class, but now I should give myself time and space to accept the sad feelings that came to the surface. I guess that’s the beauty of yoga as well. 🧘‍♀️ 🌸~ #yoga #yinyoga #yogagirl #yogacommunity #sadness #pain

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Happiness and release

Honestly, it’s difficult for me to experience a feeling of happiness or excitement. Perhaps because the fear in me is always so overwhelming. With yoga I’ve experienced a couple of exercises that made me feel comfortable and relaxed. They were exercises that made me smile, I could say happy. It’s still a long road, but I am glad I can look back on every yoga class, with a sense of happiness and release 🌸~ #yoga #yogahappiness #yogagirl #yogabeginner #yogaflow #happiness #release

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